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Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Running on empty

I don't remember the last time I got more than a few hours of sleep...and not even in a row. Yesterday I turned 37. Big freaking deal. It was a pretty crappy birthday. Charlotte is constipated and has been refusing a bottle because she's teething like mad. Took her to the pediatrician to make sure she didnt have any ear infections or anything..nope, just backed up in the belly. So I have to put pear juice in her milk to keep the "flow" going..... both kids were up and down each hour the entire night last night so I am at the point of delirium. My eyes hurt, I feel like vomiting I'm so tired and I can't stop drinking coffee and eating sugar. I'd kill for a proper meal of meal, veggies and potatoes. I'm exhausted. I can hardly microwave a bag of popcorn.

I'm waiting for the vet to call me back. I need to have Bean put down. She's 13 years old, mean and not in the best condition. She is pooping and peeing in the cellar because she hates the babies. I know it's her, I have caught her in the act. I tried to find her a new home but no takers and I cant guarantee that if she's taken to a new home that she won't freak out and poop all over their house because she's pissed off. I love her dearly and I am broken hearted that she's so angry at me. I know it's because the babies are no longer babies and are officially toddlers. They now invade her territory 24/7 and she's fed up. I feel like a horrible cat momma and and a total shit of a human being for this. I can't guarantee that she's not going to get mad and start crapping where the kids can get it and get diseases. Not good.

What else? I burned the shit out of the back of my head with hair color. Probably shouldnt have left it on for 45 minutes....oh well. At least I'm blond again.

No idea what 's going on in the real world because it's non stop Blues Clues here at the moment.

1 comment:

  1. Nora, I wish I could be over there to drop in and make you a meal. Tell you there is light at the end of tunnel and hold on tight. I only had one hellmonster small child - who is now a wonderful 16 1/2yr old. He was the baby from hell. He didn't sleep through the night until he reached 16mths old. I returned to work when he was 18mths & we both thrived with the time apart.

    I can remember sleep deprivation all too well and it is hell. I wish there was something I could offer or suggest that is useful (but alas I don't know the US systems).

    I wish I could tell you something positive for Bean (but I'm still grieving the loss of my girl) but I've got nothing in there.

    Know you are not alone (no matter how much it feels like it) and that it is temporary (they do grow up. Really).